Crys's Journal

Can you cry under water?

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 03:53:14 GMT

If nobody buys a ticket to a movie do they still show it?

Damnit

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 04:31:14 GMT

Not moving to Boston.
I guess it's just not meant to be like lots of things in my life. I'll just have to except it. This is how it's going to be and there's nothing I can really do about it. I'll just make the best out of the little I have left. Crappy friendships, stressful family, and my wonderful job at the animal hospital. I really do love my job and that's something I have that lots of people don't.

I'm leaving.

Mon, 11 Feb 2008 04:02:20 GMT

I'm moving to Boston in June.
If everything works out.

Hair is blonde again.

To be continued

Mon, 04 Feb 2008 16:54:16 GMT

At this point and age in my life I should not be making choices for other people. I should be making choices and changes to better my life. I don’t want to look back on my life 5 years later and wonder why I was working so hard to please everyone else when I should having been doing things to make me happy. Some day I won’t be able to do exciting and new things so that’s why....

Right now!

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 01:25:27 GMT

I wish I could drive around listening to Led Zeppelin with my best friend.

Laser tag.

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 05:54:32 GMT

I had so much fun tonight. I had a chance to act like a kid again.

Steak 'n' shake freaks

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 08:35:49 GMT

Some guy came up to me at Steak 'n' Shake tonight and said these exact words or something all the lines "Hey I'm sorry about them (his friends) they're rude assholes but my name is Ryan and I'm not leaving tonight without your number".

Sorry buddy, you can stay here all night but I'm leaving.

New Job

Fri, 14 Sep 2007 01:45:37 GMT

I have a new job and I love it.

Today

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 15:09:59 GMT

I'm feeling a little better, a little lighter, and little more like myself.

Tonight

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 05:48:52 GMT

It was a good night. I'm thankful for great friends.

My last entry

Mon, 20 Aug 2007 15:57:19 GMT

I sound like an angry 14 year old.

I really do hate it here though.

Hell

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 20:43:23 GMT

I'm back here in my least favorite place in the world. I wanted to leave as soon as I got in the car with my parents at the airport.
I hate this place! I hate this house! I hate my parents! I can't stand it! I just want to fucking leave!
Please tell me what I did wrong to deserve being treated like shit in my own home. I can't even have a normal conversation with my dad about getting directions to take his daughter to the mall so that HE wouldn't have to. Any word that comes out of my mother's mouth is filled with disdain. She hates my guts.
Kidnap me.

I'm going to Nashville

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 00:30:51 GMT

I'll be driving with Daniel to Nashville and flying back Saturday night. It's kind of a last minute thing.

Also...
Short hair. Shorter. What do you think?

No place like home

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 20:56:13 GMT

I don't even feel comfortable in my own home. I hate being here.

So I just looked at the pictures from an earlier post

Fri, 10 Aug 2007 07:45:05 GMT

And I look freakin' weird man.
And ugly.

I've missed LJ.

Hah

Fri, 10 Aug 2007 01:26:07 GMT

I think it's funny that my last post was about having a new job and now I have no job.
I'm poor and I'm going to be lonely in a couple weeks because Daniel is leaving next week and Aimee is leaving the 30th.
I have no idea what I'm going to do with myself.

My life.

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 23:35:30 GMT

I have a new job.
Wednesday is my last day at the old job.
I won't miss it.
I might miss the people.
I don't have to work weekends now.
Lately I have no life.
I hardly talk to anyone and no one even tries to talk to me.
I spend a lot of time babysitting and hanging out at home.
Lauren Smith and I hang out again. Like once a week. I missed her a lot.
Lovedrug Nov. 24th. Can't wait.
I'm going to New Jersey with Dana after Christmas. I've never seen snow so it should be an interesting experience. I'm freakin' excited about it! What do you wear in the snow? Do I have to wear gloves?

What's everyone else up to?

Sunday

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 00:23:42 GMT

I hate cowards!

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 03:48:12 GMT

If something is up why can't people just say something?!

No surprise.

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 04:00:20 GMT

It never lasts.

My luck has changed a little.

Sat, 22 Jul 2006 05:43:12 GMT

Let's see how long it lasts.

Constant bad luck.

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 05:17:02 GMT

When my life finally seems to turn around it comes back and hits me in the face. It seems like for the past 2 years I've been given things that make me happy but before I can blink they're snatched away from me.
Is there something wrong with me? Do I not deserve to be happy? Have I not been through enough hell to deserve a little happiness? I know I'll never get the answer to this. The only thing I can do is wait. Work really hard and avoid thinking about it and maybe good things will come my way. Damnit I've earned it.

Anyway...I've decided that if everything goes well tomorrow (which with my luck it won't) and I get a car then I'm going to start volunteering again. I really miss it. If I don't then I'm going to get a second job because I have to do something with myself. I shouldn't be home by myself as much as I am. I feel like if I'm here too much problems will start with my mom again.

That's all for now.

AGAIN. I should be used to it by now.

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 14:31:30 GMT

I've always been treated like this.

Summer

Thu, 15 Jun 2006 04:27:57 GMT

So far...

So good.

Photos

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 14:54:35 GMT

Some are pretty old.